Thought I would post something different today as I have re-injured my right arm/shoulder and unfortunately for me I am not even the slightest bit ambidextrous so a shorter than usual post will be called for.
This is a piece of prose (what I call “a poem of sorts”) that I wrote one morning back in 2012 upon waking up in agony from yet another pain-ridden restless night and I was trying to make sense of my life and my pain.
Although I am grateful that those days & nights of constant chronic pain are hopefully (apart from this current injury) behind me I thought that I would still share this poem as it still feels just as relevant today as it did when I penned it.
Rainbows have always been special to me … long before I became an ARTist.
You will always find me looking skywards searching for Mother Nature’s artist palette.
Where There Are Rainbows
From the minute you are born you are already dying.
Dying to live your life to its fullest.
Dying to awaken new-found emotions.
Dying to fulfill your personal goals and dreams.
Dying to find your own Life’s Purpose.
Until the day eventually comes when your life on earth comes to an end.
So between your birth and your death you must simply … go forth and search for your own Rainbow.
Because where there are Rainbows you will find everything that you need in life such as an abundance of rainwater, sunlight, soil, fresh air, flora, fauna, colours, well-being, creative expression, etc and by appreciating and respecting Mother Nature you will find yourself living in the world of your dreams long before your life ends.
Creativity is a healing force and creative expression is a fundamental source of health and wellness for our body and our emotions as well as for our mind and spirit.
I use the modality of creativity to live well with pain because I truly believe that focusing on being creative helps you heal … mind, body and soul.
I let my intuition (and natural curiosity) guide me as to what feels right, knowing that I already have within me everything that I need to fully experience artistic expression as a source of transformation and well-being.
Art and artistic expression helps us be able to make meaning of our creative imagination in powerful and dramatic ways through the use of colour, symbols and images.
The transformative capacity of art and imagery also helps convey our deepest feelings, gives a voice to our spirit and helps us to transcend suffering by helping us to heal ourselves and others. It uncovers the natural medicine found within all of us.
Creative expression is definitely good for you. I believe that it is just as important to your overall health and well-being as is balanced nutrition, regular exercise, meditation and pain-management.
Everything in moderation right!
Art has served us as a means to repair and renew the self via the power of our own unique healing agent our creative imagination and self-expression which helps us create new ways of seeing and being in the world.
The simple act of art making nourishes our inner self and connects us with the outer world via nature and community, locally, nationally and internationally.
Art making is an “awakening agent” which is available to everyone.
Art and artistic expression is a constant agent of transformation and is indeed a purposeful remedy for those of us in search of well-being.
Creative expression and art-making can most certainly be a life-changing practice, with or without you having any formal art-based training/education.
For example, I am a self-taught artist and I create my abstractions only from intuition, nothing is ever planned in advanced; not even the paint colours that I will use.
Art-making has led me on a journey of Holistic Creativity, prompting a life-line of creative expression, revelation, restoration, renewal and of course healing.
It is through creative expression and our imagination that we naturally find ourselves developing new life-stories and experiences as we discover that there is more to life beyond our pain, suffering and illness.
This is how we give our pain a voice and art as medicine is the manifestation of our innate creative drive to seek better health and well-being.
I choose the medicine of Artistic Expression rather than suppress my creativity.
I seek out the creative source that resides within me and allow it to flourish.
In doing so I now seek out and claim my innate creativity during bouts of pain and illness before I reach out for the contents within my medicine cabinet.
Your imagination, dreams, visions and creative urges are all prompts of creative expression that is encouraging you to rediscover who you are and all that you can be by sourcing better health and well-being … kick your pain-demons to the kerb!
This is the article that after reading it prompted me to write the above post.
Although I began my self-healing journey many years ago it has only really been during this past year that I have felt and more importantly understood the transformational energies that have been making themselves known to me.
The shift in my personal growth began when I started to question my true identity as an ARTist and Creative Expressionista/Entrepreneur because I was feeling somewhat of a ‘fake’ … not that I was faking or had ever faked who I really was before, during and currently on my journey to overcome chronic pain. So why did I feel this way???
Why indeed, I was having a real-life Identity crisis but it had absolutely nothing with being a Fake or a Fraud!
What was really happening was that I was feeling the upside to being relatively Pain-Free. I was experiencing more good days than bad and I was focusing on other things other than being in pain (and my friendly Pain Demon foes).
I was questioning why would I still want to be around others experiencing pain when I was in much better health myself? Why as an Empath would I want to take on board other people’s pain/issues/stuff? Should I not just be focusing on making abstract art and not concern myself with anyone else, be selfish for a change!
These were just for starters, my mind had gone into permanent overdrive and my Insomnia had returned.
Yes I still have some real doozy days when life hits me with the biggest curve-balls that it can throw at me but over the years I have learned how to catch and dispose of them before I fall back into a state of despair and pain.
The catalyst to it all was being asked “how was my arts business going” to which I replied “almost at a standstill as I have been so busy studying this year and although I still have been doing the odd painting here and there, I have not been putting much energy or effort into actually selling my art.”
Then I was asked “so are you an artist or not” and to that I replied “yes of course I am an artist but I am not just an artist am I?”
This conversation continued for quite some time and it left me absolutely full of self-doubt and almost to the point of wanting to quit. Truth be said it was actually the kick up the jatzy that I obviously needed to spur me into taking action.
A huge part of me feeling ‘fake’ was because I was now not so dependent on creating art as a means of pain relief (what I refer to as PAINt Relief).
I was feeling the best that I had done in years so I actually found myself struggling when I would sit down to a blank white canvas or sheet of paper. Whereas beforehand when pain was my focus I could paint abstractions until I would run out of paint.
These hesitations (eventually I would actually get paint onto paper/canvas) and focus on arts-based creative expression studies had me questioning if I really was cut out to be an abstract artist or should I just focus on helping others instead or g out and get myself a “real job”?
Are you kidding!!! It was me dabbling in art (as well as resonating with other Alternative Therapies) that led me to better health so why the heck would I want to give up the one thing that has truly kept me sane over the years of coping and managing chronic pain!
Now that I was opening up my mind and thinking of every outcome possible I could feel the intensity of my own transformational energies circling me.
First up was to decide that I would combine under my Energetic Abstractions business my Abstract Energy ARTist creative venture with my PAINt Relief/Holistic ARTistry creative venture.
The second decision was for this Introvert to come out of hiding and face my biggest fear … no guts, no glory right … so I hereby reintroduce myself as Abstract Energy ARTist Rosetta Elsner!!!
In summary, I need to go back to the original question at hand … to be truly Authentic meant that I could no longer hide who I really am, which is still very much an Abstract Energy ARTist who has successfully learned to manage chronic pain (with the help of Allopathic & Non-Allopathic therapies) and now would like to continue teaching others to do so for themselves via Holistic ARTistry. Phew … identity crisis resolved!!